why it always in this state. yea maybe alone is okay. no im not think abt my lovely frinds. i just try to avoided them slowly. I CAN'T. IN MY DEEPEST HEART I CAN'T LEAVE THEM! I WANNA GO AROUND THE WORLD, HAVING SIMPLE OF JOY EVERYDAY. TALKING LIKE THIS LOUD AND LOUDER LAUGH WITH THEM FOREVER. but i can't too. im laugh now, but if i remember it I CAN'T laugh anymore just pity-ing my self. and sulking. everyone having her/his own secret ryt?
i hate my selfgod help me. help me, and LOVE me